If you would, pray that God heal me or help me find healing or let me die soon.
Mark 5:19 portrays Jesus as saying to a man he had healed that he should go and share how much the Lord had done for him and how the Lord had mercy on him.
In my life it appears that God has done relatively little. I do not know that God has done nothing. The two cents in life that God seems to have given me do not justify to me my being alive and I would be happy to be dead soon! That would be ok.
Also, there were six Christians from 1996 to 2010 who said they had messages from God to me and the messages were either false or did not come to pass. I would be happy to be dead and hear from God his explanation of the messages which other people gave me and which were supposedly from God to me.